Hurts To Survive

You have no idea how much this hurts
It\'s worse than anything that I\'ve ever felt before
And I know now that you don\'t care
and that if you could change it you wouldn\'t

And that hurts me worse then you will ever know
I hope you are happy with yourself
I\'m sorry for what I had to do
I just needed a way to get away from the pain

I knew you wouldn\'t approve
but I did it anyways
and I\'m mad at myself
and I\'m mad at everyone else

Even though they didn\'t do anything
What I did was wrong and I\'m sry
But that isin\'t good enough
and you\'re just moving on

I just try not to think about it
but your everywhere
I used to be happy when I thought of you
but now I just want to cry

And I\'ll keep it inside
And only use the needle to hide
For what I feel is real
and it cuts like a knife

This pain goes straight to my heart
It feels ike my chest is going to explode
Like noone would care if it did
and I know that sounds bad

You were my everything
And yet I am nothing
or at least I am now
I know I wasn\'t before this

But I should\'ve known that you are just like the rest
That one thing will never change with guys
And that\'s that they will always cause pain
But still we must go on, even it hurts to survive

I\'m sorry if it\'s not good enough..just wrote it after a horrible break-up...please vote/comment. Thanks