What I Do To Die

I stop the food from my lips
I see the bones of my hips
I see my bones, I see them white
I see the skeleton in my sight

I cut my wrists
And ball my hands into fists
I get frenzied, I cut even more
Before I know it, there is blood on the floor

I tie the knot tight
I tie it at the dead of night
I tie is good, I tie it real
I tie it tight enough to feel

Over and over again, I do them once more
I'll do it until the police come to my door
I'm just tryin to die
And no, I do not lie

Food is not tempting anymore
The blood is drying on the floor
The knot is ready for another go
Do you want to watch my suicide show?

I don't need a reason to die
I don't need a reason to cry
I just want to die, let me go, please
Let me get out of a life that makes me a slease

I don't care if people hurt because of me
I don't care for all this pain to be
I just want to die, I'll do anything
I'll do anything to become nothing

What I do to die
What I'll do to lie
I'm going to die, I'm a useless cause
Your protests will not make me pause

I'm dead!
Yes, I'm finally dead!
But... why do I feel so cold?
Why can't I find anything to hold?

Why do I feel this remorse deep inside?
Why do I have the feeling that I should have tried?
Why do I want to start my life?
Even though I have already taken it with a knife

Why do I want to go back?
And start over, and find what I lack?
Why, after all I did?
From all this hope that I hid?

Its too late to even try
And now I think I'm going to cry
I'm dead, and I don't want to be anymore
Please creamate my body when you find it on the floor