Don't wanna say

I don't wanna say what I've been thinking. I know you want to know the truth but I don't wanna see your heart sinking. Its causing so much pain in my heart. I can't stand here and lie even if the truth will break us apart. I don't wanna say whats on my mind. Why can't we push fast forward instead of rewind. I push you away but you make me look at your face. I'm not worth your time, I'm such a disgrace. I don't wanna say whats hurting me. But I can't hid this pain anymore because you can finally see. You said you would always love me for who I am and not what I do. I don't wanna say that I can't be with you. Your eyes show so much pain and I start to cry. When the tears stop you have but one question.......why? I don't wanna say that I can't stand to hurt you anymore. I want you to succeed above the rest I want you to fly I want you to soar. I don't wanna hear that you need me. This is for the best, someday you will see. I love you and I always will. But now you have your destiny you must fulfill. I don't wanna say I wish you the best, because I want to give you the best and all the rest. I don't wanna say goodbye thats why I'm in your arms now and all I can do is cry. And you don't wanna say I'm right but you know its true. So before you left you turned around looked at me and said I will always love you.