To never care

Blades run across my fingertips
it takes me now - just deep small slits
i dont feel it at all
i know how to deal with this
my own blood that runs free slow
mixed with tears that drop and go
leave me here to take the pain
but this time is not enought to make it again
i need it deeper
to feel the ease
i need it farther
i need it - please
i take it slow and watch my blood
i know i could stop this, i know i could
and ive prayed for freedom that was never there
so i have learned to be numb... to never care