It seems I'm dying again
fading again
dissolving again
I'm disappearing
but why do i have to leave?
did i do something wrong?
was i a fool?
did i break a heart i was suppose to keep?
or hurt myself to much i bleed?
did he curse me?
over and over again
did he not want me to be here?
wishing i could slit my throat?
it's probably not him
because he never really cared
if i was beside him
or crying in the rain...
so why am i leaving?
did i put this on myself?
did i let my heart get broken so much,
the blood over flows?
did i break a promise?
one i swore, "no more blood.."?
answer me god!
or is this just some cruel trick?
do you think i don't deserve to live?
no, it's not that
glancing beside me i see the gun
i whisper,
"i knew i put this on myself.."
