Sometimes... I wonder about all the "what ifs".
You know, like what if we were supposed to be together?
Or, what if things weren't supposed to end up the way they did?
I wonder.
I wonder why we weren't strong enough to hold on.
I remember us talking about how we admired ourselves for putting up with all the shit we've been through.
But what does that all mean now?
We were perfectly fine the way we were.
I knew that we were good for each other.
But now I don't know anymore.
Why do I miss you so much?
You're not even that special.
I used to think you were.
But this is what I don't get.
I might say that you're not special.
But how is it that I still miss you and think of you?
Sometimes I wonder if you still think about me.
I know for a fact that I still have those days where I think of you often.
My heart is unwilling to let you go.
I want so much to let you go, but I can't.
My mind is filled with all these questions that I want you to answer.
I want to know everything.
I want to know why things turned out like this.
Can you tell me why?
Tell me why things are the way they are now.
Please don't leave me with all these unanswered difficulties.
My heart aches every time I see you with another girl.
It aches every time I see you having fun without me.
I wonder if you're really better off with me not there by your side.
Just having that thought exist, it saddens me so.
I just don't understand.
I don't regret our past relationship together, but...
Remembering all our good times prior our love,
Makes me just want to go back to our friendship,
Never having that love we once held.
I never wanted to hurt you, never.
Could you say the same about me?
Or do you really want to hurt me intentionally
As a way of getting back at me for all my faults?
We may not share the same love for each other.
But remember that I'll always care for you,
Regardless of what others think.
Our own private love that shall eternally reside in the past...
Not really a poem, just feelings. haha
And I couldn't come up with a title, so it's just... that. lol ><
