Damn Guilt

They don't understand
How this feels
I feel like Im being torn in two
One force, love, pulling me one way.
And the other, guilt, pulling me the other.
It's a terrible feeling.
Damn this guilt.

But its terrible
What I did.
I hurt them too.
I deserve this pain
This pain so strong it's left my mind and took over my body.
But it will never leave my mind.
This everlasting feeling of guilt and regret.
Guilt is regret for something you did
Regret is guilt for something you didn't.
Damn this guilt.

How can I ever know if I made the right choice?
What if I didn't
Maybe I shouldn't make any choices
They were right
They were just trying to protect me
And I threw it in their faces
Some daughter I am.
Damn this guilt.

It kills me
Acting the way I am
Sometimes I wonder why they love me
I never did things right
I screwed everything up
I'm not little miss perfect like she is.
She never had this problem.
Damn this guilt.

Always trying to hide
What a coward
Hiding from them.
Hiding from my problems
Hiding from their rules
Hiding from my feelings.
Hiding behind my curtain
Damn this guilt.
I'm not saying I don't deserve it
Because I do.
And they have committed an act of justice
Maybe it's about time I follow.

Screw justice.