A new love...
moved on from a former...
i just felt that feeling of a crush,
decided i felt more...
Day one a night of laughter and happiness.....the feeling of his hang in mine and the arm around my body........embraced in a hold i got a kiss....more than just a peck......i felt alive again....
Day two a day of sadness and happiness of injury and pain and a day of passion and romance. Lying there together in comport in one anothers arms feeling the heart beat so fast it was racing....Leaned over and made love...while in a hand embrance you stayed....you seemed to never get away and it was just a perfect amazing night...one that i havent had in over eight months.
Day three....a day of education at classes we were feeling the feeling between us and we knew what we wanted but had to pull away....
Day four.......Same as the feeling of day three though more.....spoken to of the most sweet words and feelings that made my spirit soar! Leading me to a place of glory now to a place of insecurity....
On the fifth day i read \"When you first start falling in love with someone it all ends up crashing and burning right in front of you\". I thought it would never happen. i hoped it wasnt because i have been starting to fall for him...and still am and it all crumbles. A former friend twiddled with the feelings.....
It hit me like a punch in the face i started to tear then into a ocean of crying tears burst to the floor....He felt that this would ruin a friendship and things may change....I couldnt breath..i ran away...took out the pin and made myself bleed for the first time i ever cut my skin.....My passion brought upon self infliction...i look at the marks now and say this is not me but i want to be in his arms but im prevented....now in more than a way of one.
He felt bad and in a way he should and i explained it because now i dont think i have a chance......how was it ruined? Why? I explained the feeling i was getting how my feelings grew and grew and now torn to shreds.....that when i am with him {especially} in his arms he gets the best of me and my happiness and i have truly never felt happier.....the best day was day two and he knows and now things are akward and dont know how to handle because im starting to fall in love {again} because he is more than amazing. I just want to spend more time with him but now its gone and i feel torn on how i started falling for him so fast....i dont know how to handle it because i feel so deep of passion his kiss his hold his embrace is art...his soft voice will making love the breathing the heart beat............i miss it i just wish he would come back....he told me not to worry that i wont lose him.....
{please comment and rate....i just had a really hard day with all this and if there is anyone who can help me with any advice on this please send me a comment! thanx }
