Left it all Behind

I guess you think I was wrong to throw my life away
To know and to walk away
From the very place I so wanted to be
But I know that I had to

I know I left a chasm in my midst
I know I left you pain
I'm devoid of life
It will never be the same

And yes I know I took everything from us
Everything we ever had is here in my hands
But what could I do
I never, ever meant to hurt you

I left you my life
I'm just a walking dead
There is nothing left
Nothing should be said

I needn't have turned
To know the tears we on your face
I've forgotten how to cry
I've forgotten where I left my heart to die

I guess we were happy for too long
It's made me weak
I can't take the strain
I'm searching for your name

And I know I can't go back
I can't go back with you
Just to hear you scream
Another broken dream
That I left behind with you

I know that you will never understand
That I left for you
That I couldn't bear to hurt you everyday
I couldn't take it everyday

I had to go
Just to let you know
That I wouldn't do it ever, ever again
I wouldn't shout at you in vain
Because you hurt me once again

We should never have settled in the desert
Just another place to hide
From the troubles that we carry
We have no one on our side

I used to think I'd found love with you
But you never loved me, did you
You just used to run away
Come back another day
Blaming me
Another dream is left behind with you
Now that I am on my own
I realize
That I am not alone
You are still in my heart
But I just can't let myself go back to you

I left everything, sitting in the desert
Waiting for me to return home
I know I left a pile of polished dreams
That will never come to life
Because I can't do anything at all on my own