If I can't have you..

I dial your number and hang up real fast.. for I know you wont forgive me for what happened in the past.
Sorry can't help i've already tried. I sit here and think about us.. and cry.
Why did you have to be everything that I would need? I wish you were here to help me off the ground as I lay there to bleed..
I'm scared of myself I don't know what I'll do. All I want in life is you.
I hate to think that your out with your friends having fun... while I sit here and debate with my gun.
I may sound crazy or out of my mind. But if I never met you I wouldn't have to commit the crime.