Hes to blame

I ran to my room and locked the door. My whole body was weak and sore.
My moms boyfriend was knocking and yelling at the other side. Saying if I didn't come out right now i'd die.
He raped me.. he took away my dignity. I loved this man just like a dad. I dont know what I did to make him so mad.
All I can remember is he pushed me to the floor and asked me if I wanted some more.. I was so disgusted I pushed him away. I wish my mom would have been there that day.
He slapped me in the face and threw me on the bed. And told me i'd better do everything he said.
He ripped off my clothes as I struggled to get away. He said if I resisted this would be my last day. I lay there motionless I wasn't me. This was going to be my step father thats not the way it should be. I felt as thought the world was gonna end I felt like it was all pretend. Ive never been the same. my stepfather is the one to blame.