Thus i die
I fall on the floor with a red rose laying before me
I die
I think of your face as i fade away in the darkness beneath the surface..
thinking what a crazy place that i shall go, to heaven or hell
fire is the torment i must face
dying by the souls i have forsaken
Thinking of our friendship, how you\'ve always been there
without u id be stranded on the road to self despair
As I fall faster beneath the ground & almost face my fate
A gust of wind so strong with a beaming light shining so high
An angel lifts me up to earth and sings while i admire its pleasant wings
I am set on the grass so far from home, still a blearing light shining in my eyes
One mysterious soul like figure standing before me
& I scream in my mind
who are you, what do you want from me
You simply start to whistle a song, so familiar, my head starts to spin
My knees become shaky as i fall to the floor
Life so misty with the thought of being free
From backstabbing people who pierce my heart
deceiving children stealing whats left of me
the thought of being misery free in all its selfless being
starting to open my eyes, & thus u were
My liberty, right beside me
All through lies and misunderstanding
Through every mis fortunate friend who carries deceit
you were the one always reassuring me
My legs are no longer an earthquake, uncontrollable,
My weaknesses devour
My strength gives me power to stand
You hold me close asking softly to my mind
Are you alright, sun still shining in my eyes
I softly whisper through my cells & process my thoughts to be understood
\"What happened, I saw fire, I saw Satan, I thought i died\"
I see you giggle & sigh speaking truth to my eyes
I look at you so hard, I study your face
Jamie? What happened, the fact that I am mute is a puzzle trapped in an entanglement of unsure realization
Your eyes whisper everything, I had fainted right before thee
Memories and thoughts, so painful and joyful spiking through my soul
A figure running through my mind, she was my angel
The one that saved me from hell & fire beneath the ground
For you are my blessing that I need not forget
My first best friend, My sister & the reason I was able to take each breath
My savior that I could never thank enough, or say sorry for my sins
Hours pass, I fall asleep on my throne
The journey continuing from, it feels like years ago
The whistling so strong in my head
Appearing from her shadows
Screaming and taunting, you\'ll never get rid of me
Me not listening, I was stubborn so naive
through it all I didn\'t see
you are forever more, who I need
you are an angel with wings
A blissful human being
The one who didn\'t give up on me
A beautiful face & passionate mind
my partner, my comrade, my pickle......my best friend
& with thus final line, I love you
Thus I die
Written: May 28th, 2006
Dedication to: My bestfriend Jamie
