It has to be heard

Enjoying absolutely nothing
Dying seems the only answer
I am overcame with fear
I do not know what keeps me here
I thought I was over my pain
However, it is still there
Just so impossible to bare
I want to go away
I am not planning to stay
Forget me and release me from my pain
Shoot me, cut me, and kill me
Ashes is what I want to be
Right now, in the future and forever more