These Words, Are Tattooed On My Heart

Stuff is happening, and I don't know what to do...

These words, are tattooed on my heart
and these memories, are pulling me apart
A ticking time bomb, ready to go off
but when I complain, others just scoff

For the most part, I'm alone in the world
and the thing is, my life isn't fully unfurled
a mere thirteen years of life, are what I've got
with all these arguments, my wit has been shot

Several years, and now I'm done,I can't do it
there ain't a reason to go on, I'm dying, bit by bit
I'm undergoing these strange changes, and alterations
all these fights, and all these worthless confrontations

Scarred me for good,forever marking my soul
and inside my heart, is a torn open hole
formed by weeks, months, years of abuse
constant wear, never ceasing patience use

Day after day, my patience is tested
but now, I believe I have finally been bested
I'm giving up hope on this horrible life
and now, not so bad does seem this knife

Drinking is something that I've been doing
for quite a while, my mind is ungluing
I drown in my sorrows, without regret
and my mother is drunk, she doesn't fret

She's so god**** stupid, it's a joke
sometimes, I want her to freaking choke
all this booze, is changing her for the worse
from my eyes, my tears are about to burst

She's a disgrace, embarrassment to me
and this lady, can't even begin to see
what kind of influence she's giving my brothers
without a live-in father, they're without others

My father's an alcoholic, and my mom's a drunk s*ut
this drink is ruining my life, I feel like a mutt
rundown, mistreated by all, misunderstood
I don't think things are changing for good

I've given up all hope, Becky's all I have now
and truthfully, without her, I don't know how
I'd keep going, keep living, she's a special something
and without this girl, my life is nothing...