Silent Suicide

The pressure\'s getting to me
Its eating at my soul
Im losing all my sanity
Im no longer in control

school, friends, love, family
i cant take it anymore
it feels like i just need to die
straight down to my core

My brother is such a pain
Makes me feel like dirt
Tells me i\'m so stupid
But i pretend not to hurt

Homework is pressing me down
Making me vomit from stress
Though my life doenst seem as bad
Its such a total mess

The lines on my wrist prove
That i\'m totally weak
its as if i\'m not normal
i feel like a total freak

Why am i like this?
WHAT IS IT THEY SEE?
they drop hints of what they want
they expect so much of me

i pretend to be perfectly fine
as if nothings wrong
at night the bleeding does begin
I just don\'t belong//

This smile never seems to fade does it?
A total complete lie
cause every night i cut myself
the smile fades and i begin to cry.