Happy fathers day dad..

I wish that I could be sitting here saying that you have always been the number one dad... But you've been gone for 12 years its done nothing but make me sad. I wish that I could even go buy you a tie... I cant do anything but sit here and cry. This day always has to make me think of the past. I just wish that this day will not last. I know its suppose to be soemthing special and something to look forward too. But I dont know how to celebrate it .. without you.