As I'm walking through the park
I feel so happy, so full of joy
Finally I get to spend time with him
Alone, just like I wanted.
I keep walking and start thinking
Where is he? He should be here already
Could it all have been a plan?
A stupid plan to break my heart
How could I have ever....
Wait my cell phone is ringing
It's him. He better have a good excuse.
I answer hello. But wait.
It's not him. It's his sister.
Dear Lord, something is wrong.
She's speaking too fast
I can't understand her
Say it again please
"Come to the hospital quick!
My brother was shot!"
That's what I hear. I drop my phone.
At first I'm in shock
But then the tears come rolling in
And finally it gets through my head
My love is dying.
I run home faster than I've ever ran
I tell my mother to drive me to the hospital
She takes me. No questions asked.
Those ten minutes on the road
Literally felt like days
I arrive and see his family
I am immediately directed to a room
Thank God he's alive
The doctors are hard at work
But now something is going wrong
And suddenly I hear it
The beep. Long and flat.
The doctor is out
"I'm sorry miss.
We did everything we could.
But we lost him"
In my head and in my heart
I keep on denying it
No it couldn't happen
And then I realize the truth
He's dead.
Gone from my life forever
He's never coming back
And the worst thing is
I never got to tell him how much I really loved him.
Then I woke up...
I cried, worried it might be true
But then I reassured myself
Everything was alright
And I went back to sleep
