"tonight, my pain ends"

Every night, before I fall asleep
I pray for you, and hope that your okay,
I cant seem to take you out of my mind
and I cried all day again today.
I've lived in misery since you left my side
and I cant seem to find my smile,
I can hear us giggling inside my head
and I haven't been out for a while.
What good is having a heart
If it can only feel pain?
and it is too much for me to handle
so I used the razor blade again.
My world inst the same
I feel like no one cares anymore,
my mind is all mixed up
and my heart is very sore.
I have nothing to live for
and cant seem to find a reason to be here,
I don't even know where I stand
I feel my death is very near.
So tonight, before i go to bed
Ill pray for you, and cut real deep,
so I can get rid of all this torture
and never wake up from my sleep.