Something New.

Your smile is almost enough for me to run to you and embrace you.

Embrace you for what I've wanted needed and havent gotten.

You make me smile when I thought that I wouldnt;

You even made it possible for me to doubt that when I knew I could'nt.

Sometimes I think about your smile and then stop myself

Is it because I am afraid of what most likely will happen?

Even though much of my heart is scared from before

Its your willingness to try and pick up the remaining pieces

This caring charming you I adore.

I stop my-self not wanting but yearning to want more.

Its been years and yet I feel like I have known you all the years between.

I am sorry if I am sounding intense but you make me feel

Like I dont have to worry about what youre seeing

I want to get to know you like I already feel I do,

Yet I am scared to.

I know rejection comes and it goes.

I know you will have the friend and the foes

Losing you would crush my already mangled heart

I want a clean slate and happy you werent judging me from back then

And that I get a fresh new start.

Youve already made me smile, youve already made me laugh, youve made

Me what to think about something and not stop.

Again I ask myself am I scared at getting to know you as a friend ?

And scared you will not want more...?

And when would my heart be left; a heap on the floor?

I am not asking for anything but for you to get to know me...

I smile at the stars

And shut my eyes to dream

And awake each day to talk to you as crazy as that seems.

Thank you for letting me live and laugh