Hear me crying out
you don't know what my life is about
all the pain i hold inside
it'd be better if i died
you wanna know why i feel this way
just look at all the things you say
nothing to make me feel like you care
nothing to rid me of the pain that i bear
you say that's a lie
that you never want me to cry
but it's my soul that you've broken
and my fears stay unspoken
you'd never know the things i do
even though i say I'm through
I've left the things i used to be
just to hide what's really me
you tell me what I'm supposed to do
but you don't know what's really true
all i need is to feel like I'm loved
rather than being pushed and shoved
the things i have to deal with in life
my best friend is a blood stained knife
crying at night
being kept up with fright
afraid to go to sleep
with that comes nightmares so deep
showing all my fearful thoughts
hearing the booming of 3 loud shots
one to the heart the stomach and head
then in the dream I'm quickly dead
wake up at dawn
letting out a tiresome yawn
quickly wishing the dream would come true
knowing that's the only thing i can do
to rid myself of this torturing pain
my tears have left a permanent stain
a stain on my soul and on my heart
this is the pain i want to part
always being the one left out
this is what I'm all about
keeping others from feeling the same
in the end taking all the blame
emotional pain is the worst of all
it likes to linger and makes the call
whether you live or whether you die
this is what i hide with a lie
a happy laugh and too fake smile
inside I'm crying all the while
tearing and ripping at my soul
in this life i can never be whole
this is where i want to end
all my wounds can never mend
and here i think I'll say again
there's nothing left for me to gain
