For You

For you,
I live.
For you,
I try.

For you,
I pretend,
That I don't want to die.

For you,
I strive,
To make you proud,
And earn your pride.

For you,
I hope,
That things change fast.

For you,
I dream,
Of a way to erase the past.

For you,
I love,
I lie too.

For you,
I'm alive,
But still don't want to.

For you,
I tried,
But failed still.

For you,
I'm sorry,
That I fell ill.

Like the commercial said,
It takes over your will.

I can think positive,
Hell, I can even smile;
But no matter what I do,
I cant make it worth your while.

I can try not to cry,
I can tell myself,
That I don't wanna die.

But no matter what I do,
Its never for me, dad,
Its always for you.