Help meeee

I face a battle in almost every way. Its hard for me to get past every single day. Its hard for me to even smile... because I know that wont last more than a little while. Its hard for me to talk.. even some days I'm too weak to walk. Some days I can't hold back the tears. Its been like this for so many years. Its hard for me to get out of this stage. I can't do anything.. all I can do is fade. I feel like I'm sinking more and more into the ground. I wish that my happiness was something that I would have found. I wish that it was earlier in my years. I wish that I wasn't left alone with my fears. I cry so hard that I cannot breath. I pray to god, and gasp on one knee. Please let me find peace with my inner self. Just please someone.. I really need help.