Depths of the unknown

The day i died inside
was the day i decided to lie
i created a new identity
and battled through the tears i cry

i longed for a better day
where i could be OK
not ashamed to be me
or hide what i have to say

as the anorexia consumed me
i fled to another place
i was scared to live, scared to die
so i just hid my face

i walked through the streets alone
sheltered my heart from pain
pretended i was fine
till only bones did remain

as the months went by
the color drained from me eyes
my body became weak
and i lost the art to my lies

the hunger pains haunted me
they ate away my skin
my clothes didn't fit
and everything i did seemed a sin

the day i collapsed i knew
i knew it was the end
i could no longer lie and cheat
i could no longer go on and pretend

i was forced to stop
my mother got involved
and the sleepless nights began
so the problem could be solved

months down the track
the weight i began to gain
but the pain inside that caused it
never went , it just remained

so a year down the track
the habits i continue
i begin to slip in to the depths
the depths of anorexia, who knew