The night your perfection changed...

Everything used to be so easy
I always knew what to say.
But since its all changed and weird
I dont know how to behave.

We used to be perfect for each other,
No one else could interupt our love.
But then you started abusing it
and i thought i could stay-until that final shove.

After a night out with my girlfriends,
and far too many alcoholic drinks
I walked into our kitchen
where u threw me against the sink

"What did u do last night, you wh0re"
you shouted loudly at me
"You make me look foolish!"
You kicked my already bloody knee.

The next morning came,
and I thought it had been a dream
as I looked in to our bedroom mirror
my lips opened in a scream.

My face was bloody and bruised,
my nose looked rearranged.
My body was crying out in pain
and shock was running through my veins.

I couldnt believe what had happened
After three years of it being perfect,
now your true colours were unleashed
and now my world was wrecked.

I didnt want my world to crumble
so very foolishly I gave in.
Stupidly I gave you one final chance.
If I hadnt i could have changed what would have been

Things were normal for a little awhile
until a strange man called our home phone.
Your eyes glazed over and you grabbed my shirt,
soon across the room my poor body was thrown.

The next morning came and went
and once again I told myself that it was my own fault,
I thought i had asked for everything that happened
So again you got another shot.

As I looked into the mirror
I vowed that if you touched me once more
I would leave your sorry ass
I would walk straight out our front door

My friends tried to call, they wanted to catch up
but i couldnt let them see what i had become.
I hated my whole life, my whole world.
You had destroyed me, you were the scum.

After another week or two though it felt like only a day.
You were angry and abusing me, shouting and slapping my back.
Fortunately for me, my mother entered the room,
once seeing what was happening she hit you with a whack.

Its lucky mum came in that time
or my situation would have only gotten worse.
I would have always forgiven you
this was my love life curse.

Now I am in councilling facing my deepest fears.
The doctor says I will be fine
and i would have to agree,
no longer will I ever be so blind.

The next relationship i have
will be nothing like my last
They say you never learn from your mistakes
Well I will, I'll never, ever repeat my past