This dangerous love affair

This dangerous love affair
I give you my heart just to feel you take it and give nothing back
You don't know the feeling it gives me to hear you say my name
But to know it's for nothing special takes it all back
To know you're going home to her not coming home with me
Breaks my aching heart
To know I'll never be the everything you need
And to feel that you're the everything I've always needed
Just doesn't fit
Like the pieces of my shattered heart that don't make anything even remotely heart shaped
Torn apart too many times, like a jigsaw frayed at the edges
What am I to do?
I feel you come and take all of me
And for a moment I'm in heaven
But it's a heaven she's in 24/7 without even trying
When you've finished with me you'll walk away
After ripping out my dysfunctional heart
And tearing it up again, like you do each time
Before throwing every tiny, worn out piece back at my tear-stained face
So, there you go you can have me
Just leave a little of me left unused, so that this can happen again
You're like a drug
And there is no re-hab, only another fix of you to keep me sane
I know it's not right, and it hurts me everytime
But I've had you so long now, I can't stop
You are bad for me, when you leave me broken on the floor
I can't take it anymore
Just one more fix of you, to get me through, and you'll take all that I am
All that links me to you, all that loves you without even showing
I'll be taken, and you won't even notice
Won't even care, for the love we share
But it's there, it's all there
What can I say?
There's no words to be said between us and no words to tear you from her
Not long enough to notice who I am anyway
Not long enough for my heart to try and mend itself
And for you to help me sew the pieces back together to the shape it's supposed to be
No, you leave just as I reach the top
And let me fall right back down to the bottom, with no attempt to catch me
I hit the ground everytime
And am left aching on the floor, bruised by the lack of affection you show
And longing for a hand to help me up
But there will never be one with you, will there?
This is what I'll wait for the rest of my life
A tattered lonely desperate hand to pull me from my bottomless pit of pain
To lift me, up off the ground on which you threw me
And raise me up
To a heaven I can stay in, without even trying