Another father's day

Today is fathers day
and I'm sorta sad.
What do i say to people when they
ask "what did you get for your dad?"
Do i say you're dead and far away?
Do I say you left..that you broke your promise to stay?
It's been 7 years..and the time went quick
but I can remember that night
like it was just yesterday
I can remember the blood..
and I remember me screaming..
I woke up next to you dead
I wish I was dreaming..
I guess I'm not supposed to complain
other people have it worse.
But its really hard
to know that you're gone
and aren't ever coming back..
It's really hard..to hold it in
when most your friends
have a dad.
It seems like,
you couldn't care less...if I shed a tear for you.
But I've shed so many..lost count..
If you could only realize how much I miss you..
But as this stupid poem,
comes to an end.
I slap a smile on my face
and tell myself
that there's nothing I can do
I'll live another day,
I'll live another night.
I'll live my life the best I can
without you by my side..