Always*~*

Things seem to be ok
you don't hate me anymore
but still there's a part inside me
that says it's exactly like before

the fights, the blame, the constant lies
all seem so familiar
and i can't get rid of these thoughts,
the ones that you still want her

my heart is still torn and my soul is still broken
from the first time that this happened
and sometimes it feels like a joke,
and i'm the only one not laughing

maybe this is all a joke,
your just playing with my mind
maybe you think i'm a nobody
and that i'm just a waste of time

at times i'm forced to think this
because of the things you do
but most of the time there's no time to worry,
why worry when i have you?

there's no use in sitting here
waiting for you to leave me
i'm just giving you all that i can,
i'm setting my heart free

and all the while i'm hoping
that this time it is real
because if it's not you have broken my life
and my heart you have managed to steal

so just be the person i know you are
not the one you sometimes turn into
just know this is no joke for me;
i'll always be in love with you