Failed To live

We would always be friends,
but even from the start,
the moment i met you,
i gave you my heart.

at first i just wanted to be a friend,
but now i want to be more,
like a friendship on fire,
i want something like never before.

I wanna be so happy,
with the thought of being with you,
but what i couldn't find out,
what was really true.

Maybe it was a mistake,
to think that you would love me,
but that pain that holds in side my heart,
is the scars that i can only see.

tonight i hold my plushie,
i hold him so tight,
because before i go to bed,
i have to cry myself to sleep every night.

i would stare out my window,
and stare at the stars every night,
i would dream hope and cry,
as i wish on a star with all my might.

all i wanted was us to be happy,
but you rejected the feeling i would give,
so now tonight with a blade,
I'll remember i have failed to live.