Lost Control

by Natalie   Jun 20, 2006


I'm watching myself fade and slip away,
How will I make it through another day?
I'm trying my hardest to stay awake,
But these feelings I can no longer take.

The tears from my eyes are now crying dry,
And I have given up on asking why.
The smile on my face doesn't ever show,
Cause the truth I hid no one wants to know.

I begged and I pleaded down on my knees,
I wanted the help but you couldn't see.
I have tried to pretend that I am fine,
But roll up my sleeve, you will see the signs.

I said that I stopped and that I was okay,
And after that you had nothing to say.
You saw me break down with glass in my hand,
Atleast then I thought you would understand.

I've lost control on the life I had led,
I can't stop these thoughts inside of my head.
I can't find the person I used to be,
So now that you know will you rescue me?

..Cause I think I've lost control.

{This is more venting.. You might not be able to understand it. But, I spose if you wanna know what it all means then PM me or something}

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  • 18 years ago

    by Kara !

    Wow. This is difficult Natalie. I'm trying to figure it out, but it is hard, this one.
    "But roll up my sleeve, you will see the signs."
    So the character has been cutting. Maybe she'd stopped, and is now on a relapse. Or, more probably, she's being getting worse and worse, and is finally out of denial, admitting what she's been doing, and is begging for help.
    "..Cause I think I've lost control."
    I love that ending. I'd love to hear more people say that - it's admiting, accepting, and pleeding all in one sentance.

    Great work. x

  • 18 years ago

    by Nelle

    Well, i can honestly say i understand completely...I can relate alot alot to this!! It was a awesome piece, it really made me think about myself!! great job 5/5

  • 18 years ago

    by Amberinaa

    OMG SOOOOO GOOD!
    5/5

  • 18 years ago

    by Laura

    OI got a pretty good idea from th poem how you felt at the time of this write. Again you have let loose an emotion that most can relate to...but hide their depreession and feelings of uselessness away so that no others can tell they feel lijw that.
    Many ppl fall under the spell of the knife..sad but true.
    Yiou have conveyed these feeling very well in this write!!

  • 18 years ago

    by daena

    You poem was alright but i'm not to sure if it quite deserves the rating it got. Where you said ....crying dry, And... it breaks up your poem and makes the viewer a bit hesetant. Have fun.... ME xox

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