Run

I'm running so fast that I'm just,
Losing my breath with only the thought of
Knowing I will return by sunrise
Knowing I will end up in your arms, gazing into your eyes.
Please don't tell me that it would be easy to leave, because
Something is left here, something is holding onto me.
I'm so uncomfortable in this skin that I wish I could just
Disappear
I hold onto the hope that eventually,
Everything will become clear.
I didn't mean to make him feel the things he feels
Maybe I shouldn't have let him in
Maybe I should've ended all of this before I let it begin.
Now I'm falling faster, like time running out in the sand
I just wish that someone could give me hope,
That someone would understand.
There's an empty in me, and no matter what I do to fill the void
No matter how many lines, how many hits, how many shots I take...
I'm still lonely, still destroyed.
I thought that giving up my body to him
Would help me give him my soul,
I guess no matter what I do
I'll just never feel whole.

If only I could run away
Instead I just run in place.