I knew the gun wasnt loaded at first. Daddy had always left the gun unloaded. I usually just played with the gun in his room, but this time I wanted it for use. So I took some bullets and put it in. I wanted to hurt her so bad. I wanted her out of my life. OUT. Every time I look in the mirror it was all I could see now. I decided I had no choice.
I couldnt take her anymore, thats??s when I thought I could make her go away. Maybe I was just going insane. Who knows, but to me it was the best thing I have come up with ever. I was a genius! I thought of it as another way to help me. I wouldnt have to look at her eyes anymore. Ever.
I took her to the bathroom, I told her I was going to do her hair. I looked in the mirror and said to her I hate you. Im sorry but your going to have to leave. I locked the door. And looked back at her. She manipulated me. She told me I wouldnt get addicted and now it was eating me away. Skin and bones thats all I was. It wasnt keeping me happy anymore, just taking my money. I couldnt sleep and I couldnt eat. All this because she told me I had control over my body. She said it would make me feel like I was invincible. It did for a little while then it just started ruining me. And Im still addicted because of YOU!
I said Im sorry this was my last choice. I turned the water on washed my face and gave one more glance back at her. I closed my eyes, counted to three. One, Two, Three, CLICK bang Drop. Silence.
