I did this to Me

I Did This to Me

love did this to me
forming itself deep in my heart
God, i wish is would just depart

"friendship" did this to me
pretending it was mine
if only the offer i could decline

falseness did this to me
an untruthful act of caring
if only "friends" were so daring

inability to be loved did this to me
shredded to pieces and broken
trying to numb myself to be frozen

ugliness did this to me
I am woven out of the devil's slime
created in the darkness of nighttime

foolishness did this to me
believing one day i might find love
the only care i ever get is from above

greediness did this to me
needing love from God and humankind
but it seems that most people are maligned

too many questions did this to me
unanswered wonderings of why,
why not being loved has left me to die

anger did this to me
the reasons I'm not loved are pissing me off
nothing to cradle me but this falling trough

loneliness did this to me
feeding me with the feeling of yearning
starving me with a bareness so draining

hopelessness did this to me
for God gave up on me a long time ago
leaving me in a state so very low

I did this to me
wishing i was more than i can be
unable to pierce a perfection in me

the thoughts of my mind did this to me
twisting every word, motion, and look
to break into me like a poisoned hook

the embracing of suicide did this to me
pills carving the lining of my throat
creating my life's hell, a life so remote

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