Im starting to cry inside
just tumbling, tumbling
but still refusing to confide
as my angry heart is crippling
i slam into the ground
but i can\'t break a bone
numb and already hellbound
for i am and never will be my own
stolen by the need for love
and shattered by heartbreak
now too deep in dirt to see above
wishing the me would unmake
so hold me close to you
for i don\'t want to be alone
i long for my heart to renew
reset it into that of a gemstone
i know you don\'t care
but i still want your empty touch
for such closeness for me is rare
and it seems you are like a crutch
i think about saying \"let go, let go\"
but your arms are still around me
i could feel again since so long ago
making believe of a love so dreamy
this is so very wrong and foolish
you were just making me feel better
as i wanted releasement from anguish
and craving my life to be brighter
bored with these false act of yours
i pull away and scream at you to leave
wanting to let out a million more outroars
and trying to rip my heart from my sleeve
My drunken cries are heard but you don\'t listen
you don\'t want to see the reality of my pain
For why i hurt so much is too brutal a reason
and you don\'t care, so why should i try to explain?
i am now all alone, yet again, all alone
i\'ve come to know this kind of room
it is like me, dark and cold down to the bone
as i am covered with a mask of gloom
the night seems to be growing dimmer
and my eyes seem to be growing darker
alone and wishing i was a little stronger
but am left with a thinned out whimper
and i no longer want these tears to be mine
so please, won\'t you take them away
and i will just play pretend, saying i am fine
though wishing an end would find this day
and now all you do is laugh about it
can you not see my silent scream
they\'re yelling at you and at me, dammit
but, finally, i burn into the devil\'s scheme
the sheme he planned with the result of death
i am about to give in as i think of how at rest i\'d be
to finally end with my one last breath
and a termination to this \"life\" would find me
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