Pretence

A smile comes to me,
ever so easily.
I laughed along with my friends,
as if i haven't got a single care in the world.
Yet, once I'm alone,
tears threatened to fall.
I felt so alone,
and helpless.
All i want is for someone to care,
to understand,
the pain i am going through.
Each smile i forced out cuts through my heart.
Each fake laughter makes my heart bleed.
I only hope that i have someone to turn to,
when i need a listening ear.
But, now..
i realized that is not going to happen.
all i can do is suffer silently.
and keep up the pretence..
I'm shutting out everyone unconsciously.
slowly but surely,
I'm slipping out of everyone's life.
and no one noticed.