My Friends, My Pain

My friends are my life
They make me happy when I want to cry
But now my friends are turning to knifes
And now my heart wants to die

My Willow is a beautiful girl
But now all she can do is cry these woeful tears
All these words she wants to scream, she wants to hurl
But it's her brother that she deeply fears

My Lisa is a lovely lady
But now she is depressed and her family is falling apart
All these little heartbreaks, she's taking them badly
And now it looks like her pain will start

My Ashleigh is a gorgeous woman
But now she fears people, they are always around
All these little breaths hurting her, she fears God's creation, Man
It seems she can't keep herself from the ground

Then there's me
The in between of them all
But you just wont see me
Until you see me fall

My girls are hurting now
And now they want to die
And this is how
I start to cry

My beautiful, gorgeous, lovely friends
Want to die or never be found
They want their lives to come to sad ends
And their bodies placed in the ground

But they don't see what happens to me
They turn around and lean on my shoulder
Soon there wont be any Niquee left to be
"Who was there to hold her?"

My friends are fighting now
And they just wont let it be
But they don't know how
It is hurting me

I want to die
Because they're fighting hurts me so
No more will I sit around and cry
Surely they must know!

My beautiful friends are dying
And I can't help but want to die too
When I'm alone, I can't stop crying
I don't know what to do!

The love of my life is here
To hold me up when I fall
But now, I have something he will fear
And I don't have the time to call

My friends are killing me
With their words of hatred to each other
Please Willow, Ashleigh, Lisa, have a look see!
We are BEST FRIENDS like no other!

One of my friend's cuts herself
And now I understand why
I think I will do it to myself
So I no longer have to cry

* This isn't a made up poem. This is the real deal. I'm hurting and I need you to notice. If anyone can help, please email me or comment. I really need help. I don't want to start cutting. I'm as depressed as ever. Please help *