Walk Away From My Suicide

He turned back to me
All those tears I could see
He told me to stop the blade
And wait for the tears to fade

I looked at him, from my place on the ground
I can't believe I am this puddle of blood he'd found
The blade is grasped in my hand, it was shaking
I moved it to and fro, all this blood it was making

His tears slid down his cheeks
And his eyes looked at me, remorse he seeks
"Stop," he says, "your breaking my heart"
"Just looking at you is tearing me apart"

I cried, I can't stop this pain
This released blood is my shame
He took me into his arms
And he waited for my sorrow to calm

I held onto him, I never wanted to let go
I told him I loved him, I had to let him know
"I love you too, but why?"
"Why can't you be normal and cry?"

I've done all my crying
And didn't stop me from trying
My wrist are bleeding, and so is my heart
Because now he and I are apart

He held me through all the pain
He held strong when I threw the blame
He held me up when I was about to fall
But it didn't help at all

I'm broken
I remember all the words we had spoken
He walked away, he couldn't take my pain
And now my wrist are feeling the blame

I sit here on the ground
All alone, death is where I'm bound
The blade is moving from one side to the other
I wish I had my one and only lover

I remember his arms
How they help me calm
But I wonder, why did I keep the blade?
And let my true love fade?

He found me
When he came back to see
He found me bleeding once more
He looked at me, then walked out the door

I drove him away with my sorrow
My pain was too hard to follow
My love, I'm sorry
I can't help if I make you worry

I cut twice as much now
I bleed what my body will allow
Then I make another cut, I make it deep
And wait for this blood to come and seep

When he was here
I would cut, he would fear
Now he's gone, and now I cut more
But he's gone, he walked through that door

A lost cause, he tried so hard to change me
But he didn't know, this is all I can be
The suicidal woman lying down, long dead
The suicidal woman with all this pain in her head

I love him so
I have to let him know
I need to lean on someone, I need them to understand
I need someone to give me a helping hand

The scars a numerous to count, they cover my arms
But still, my pain no longer calms
I let the love of my life fade
And I'm left using this long-rusted blade