A smile to the world

A smile to the world
But a cry inside
Alive to them
But in me I died

They think there is nothing wrong
Cause there's no reason to
There are no real big problems
Nothing that I go through

But inside it is a mess
Although I don't know why
Everything so messed up
And every day I cry

I can't see it otherwise
Than that it is all black
Just can't ignore these feelings
I cannot push them back

I feel it is going wrong
I feel I'm falling down
But I just cannot tell them
That I will nearly drown

Maybe that I am ashamed
Because I hide it away
Or think they don't understand
So I'll never say...

A smile to the world
But inside a cry
Alive to them
But in me I died