Pretend

As i read all your poems
all i did was cry
not because of all your cuts
but because you thought i lied
i never lied to you
i wanted to be with you
but you left me here
there was nothing i could do
just wait for you
to come back to me
but it seems like
it was never meant to be
i didn't mean to hurt you
to cause you all this pain
to make you hurt yourself
see, its my fault again
i dont know whats wrong with me
but something holds me back
i'm not sure what it is
something that i lack
so many times i wanted to kill myself
but i didn't want to hurt you
so i suffered all alone
pretending it wasn't true
all this time
i never told you what i really feel
but after everything
i still dont think its real..

**something i had to go thru with my ex, but plz rate/comment.. would mean alot. at least to know what you think**