Why Can't I Tell Him?

Why didn't I tell you when I had the chance?
Why couldn't I tell you I cared?
Maybe I've thrown it all away.
All because I was scared.

I thought I could tell you anything.
But I just didn't know how to show.
My love for you was more than friends.
That I cared more than you'd ever know.

One day I heard you'd be leaving me,
And I didn't know when you'd be back.
I knew if I never saw you again,
My whole life would be off track.

I wanted so badly to tell you.
To say how I really felt.
But I just didn't know how to play
Those cards that I'd been dealt.

What if you thought I was joking?
What if you though I was dumb?
Or what if I lost the courage.
Before Iâ??d even begun?

What if I finally told you,
And you felt the same about me?
Would everything turn out ok,
Like we were meant to be?

Should I smile because we're friends?
Or cry 'cause that's all we'll be?
How can I ever tell you,
That I care for you more than you see?