New life

I know not what keeps me from it
shiny blade through silky skin
bloodied knife that cuts so deep
seems too sweet to be a sin

bound to this unbearably
tied down by shackles of my fear
death is close, draws me far
salvation is no longer near

whispering fingers pull my hair
anger creeps behind lying eyes
sorrow sheds my tears of shame
happiness my life denies

darkness closing in around
suffocating in endless night
drowning in a starless sky
never putting up a fight

let me go, don't hold me here
let me live, don't make me die
please don't hurt or tease or mock me
don't do anything to make me cry

lost and alone in a void of dark
swirling around without ever thinking
dancing in circles while tears stain my cheeks
I am abandoned, my cold heart is shrinking

take me now, and cure me here
kill me then, and bring me home
death is sweet after suffering
no more sorrow, no longer alone

a bright light beckons, its smile is pure
they offered me heaven and took away hell
dark hands reach out as I walk up the path
black roses cling to my body's dead shell

knife in hand, I take a deep breath
blood streams down my hand as i slice through my skin
my body dies quickly, but my spirit lives on
so happy i am, as my new life begins...