Don't pity me!

by Willow   Jun 24, 2006


As the saddened summer dew falls from my cheeks,
The blade moves silently upon my wrist.
As my red blood begins to leak,
I remember the happiness I have missed.

I watch the sunset in the pink sky,
Wishing that I could escape the pain that haunts.
I finger the blade in my pocket as I begin to cry,
Wishing the bad dreams would stop their terrible daunts.

While the blade begins to creep along my arm,
I weep because it is so good to have a pain stronger than before.
One day I will stop this evil self-harm,
But for now I will continue to cry behind a closed door.

When the birds twitter with happiness,
That oh-so familiar need to cry returns.
The blade starts to call with sweet tenderness,
Wanting to take away the words in my head that continue to burn.

A gray cloud of doubt follows me everywhere,
Brining sadness and tears as company.
The blade follows, along with the scars I wear,
Managing to take away the pain triumphantly.

I used to say "I'll never use a blade",
But here I am and the blade is like a best friend.
I pray for the scars on my wrist to fade,
But the praying and scars never seem to end.

My salty tears continue to fall,
And new pain starts to form.
The blade is constantly allowing blood to fall.
Releasing my anger like rain in a storm.

As the pain invades I try to bury my emotions inside,
The blade is calling but I don"t want to give into the hurt.
My heart and arms are bleeding because of this confused life,
And some days I sit down and cry letting my tear make mud with the dirt.

Dont pity me because I hurt,
Don't pity me because you don't know what itis like.
Just love me for all Iim worth,
And take the blade away to save my life.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Mama

    "The blade is constantly allowing blood to fall.
    Releasing my anger like rain in a storm." This is an amazing metaphor! It took awhile for my son to try to describe to me what it made him feel like when he cut, and why he cut. For a long time I could only understand it as the pain it caused, ...but I finally understood it is about the emotional pain, anger and strife it releases. Just so you know, he was diagnosed with Severe Depression and low self esteem. that was 18 mnths ago. He's been taking meds. and did therapy and is now FINALLY, the young man he wants to be. happy, without faking it, able to feel all kinds of emotions, not just sad. It's pretty amazing and wonderful! Please hang in there, get the help you need..it is so worth it...AND,,you have GREAT things to accomplish in your life...start now!! :)

  • 18 years ago

    by dee

    I dont pity you.. i dont know you.. yet i feel the need to help you in anyway that i can. i know how it is.. i mean im trying to stop the cutting.. its harder then people might think. but either way.. i hope you snap out of this soon and realize hurting urself wont solve anything. amazing poems by the way.. all of them were great. full of emoiton.. your choice of words were perfect..
    dee

  • 18 years ago

    by Nicole

    Trust me when i say i dont pity you. it may feel that everyone who doesnt understand full pitys u but it isnt always so sometimes there are people who want to help but dont know how so that act the way they think best. ur poems are all beautiful and full of emotion. i dont cut but the impulse to do so gets stronger everyday. so all i can say is be strong and u r welcome to talk to me if u want to

  • 18 years ago

    by manic moments

    Willow, I know your hurting, I know you crying, and you know I'm going to be there in so many days! I'm taking that blade from you, and taking it homw with me so you can NEVER see it again! I dont want you to hurt anymore lilo. It hurts reading this poem and knowing that you are hurting for real. Please try and thing.

    Luv Niquee
    XOXOXOXO

  • 18 years ago

    by struggling

    This is a great poem.i wont pity you cuz i hate for people to pity me.I will also take the blade away from you and we can become friends so i leave you my email address not filled with a bit of pity bgs7luv@yahoo.com.This is a wonderful poem!5/5

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