The night has come

The night has come
my parents they do meet
for the first time since i was 11
when i lost my own heart beat

tonight my brother turns 18
the boy i cant help but hate
because of what he did to me
i cant love him , its to late

tonight ill test my own strength
to how strong i can be
cause tonight is going to be hard
no one else seems to see it but me

I'm sitting in my bedroom
looking at the walls around
I'm sheltered within this place
here no one can hear a sound

these walls are my Saviour's
they have held me when i cried
and loved me when i was alone
talked to me when others had died

the tears have stopped flowing
i can no longer cry
for there have been to many tears
sheltered by too many lies

the night is looming closer
the day is disappearing around me
and the sun has lost its warmth
created the demon you see

the demon that comes out
when no one is around to see
she makes me cut and starve
i hate what she has done to me

i may seem like a troubled girl
but i promise you I'm not
I'm just a little girl scared
hurt one to many times, hurt a lot

i long to be free of pain
and this night shall stand the test
it'll prove my family is normal
just normal like the rest

hopefully then that pain will vanish
and i can cope with the depression
ill lead a normal life
and this will be my last confession