Begging Redemption For Mistakes

Put me out of my misery
The world has turned me in
And as I stand in the cuffs of life
They tell me "please begin"

My story was so different
And still nobody understands
It's hard to face or cover up
The guilt shown on my hands

"I had no choice," I'm screaming
With a broken face of lies
They glare at me; no mercy
Because it's evident I tried

What I thought would be sorrow
Turned into cheerful laughs
They locked the doors and left me
And moved outside to dance

I watched through dirty windows
Observing lives from afar
It seemed like their graceful moments
Etched in my skin a scar

And my bloodied tears still fell
No body, No one cleaned my face
I was dirty, my past was filthy
As was this forsaken place

My hands remained bonded
My face, still ugly and impure
And my body stood so fragile
As my mind lay down unsure

They didn't let me finish
And bring justice to my heart
Nothing had saved me from my fate
No one had told me 'stop'

And now my wrists are bleeding
As I remember that day
In foolishness I ended it
Without good words to say

Back then I thought different
Had a notion things would change
And I'm still here in this window
Watching through dirty glass in pain

As this fog grows deeper
I beg: Redemption for my mistakes!
But no they are all dancing
As my bleeding heart still aches

(I always return comment favors!)