Do what you need to, even if it wont make you happy, do what you need to to live with your self, Whats best for you. I like the poem, Its so strong, so much feeling hatered, sadness to it. But stregth, Sounds like you have a lot of strength.

Nice poem, i can feel deep feelings in it, very well written........5/5

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