Much better now (abuse)

*this is really long i wrote it on
9-22-05

i cry no one comes to my rescue
i cry till no more tears come
i cry till mommy gets home...mommy doesn't help me...mommy goes to her room
i hear daddy yelling...daddy's mad
i hear mommy fall why did she have to go in there??
i hear crying...more yelling...mommy's quite
what happened...why can't i hear mommy?
why is she quite?
i want to know! i cry harder...nothing comes
I'm going to run away...that will help me get away from daddy but...what about mommy?
i can't leave her
i have to...then I'll come back and save her
i promise myself that i will return and take her away from daddy that way she's safe
i must try... i try to get up only to realize my little legs won't work
i crawl across the floor
i get to the door i reach up...and daddy grabs me by the hair...I'm yanked up and thrown across the room...it's no good he's too strong...(the next day)...today i go to school but I'm not going
I'm going to run away
my mommy doesn't give me a kiss
i haven't seen her since last night
my daddy says be good...he doesn't remember last night
i walk by myself to the bus stop
i get there...lots of the other kids talk about how much fun they had over the summer
i keep walking acting like i don't know them
i won't let them know I'm hurt they'll only hurt me more
i walk to my mommy's sister's house...there i knock on the door...she's dressed really pretty
i tell her what happened last night and she starts to cry
i tell her mommy got quite...she whales
she calls a man and he comes over
he has a notebook and tells me to tell him what happened last night
he tells mommy's sister to sit down by me...she sits next to me and tells me it's OK
she holds my hands...her's are soft and warm mine are small and cold
i tell the man in blue what happens
my mommy's sister Cries again the man in blue rubs his face
he tells me it will never happen again
he asks to call more of the men in blue
mommy's sister nods her Head yes she can't even talk
i ask her whats wrong and she cries more now she wraps her arms around me and tells me everything will be OK
she gives me a room to call my own
I've been with her for three weeks now and i saw my mommy once...but she was quiet...again...she didn't even look at me or say i did good
she just laid there in a box as all these people came up to her crying she didn't talk or look at anyone
on the way to my new home i asked why she was so quite and my mommy's sister said she wasn't going to come back
i asked why...didn't she still she like me?...didn't she still love me?...or did she hate me?
why won't she come home?!?
i don't know
now i know...my daddy killed her
the man in blue comes here some times to see how I'm doing
he says I'm lucky...i don't know how...i don't have a mommy or a daddy now
the kids in school look at me now asking me all these questions
i run away from them
i don't talk in school anymore but everyone still looks at me
my mommy's sister doesn't know but she's my new mommy
I'm doing much better now