I Loved you too much to let you go

I can't seem to get this through my head,
You seem to be gone forever,
I've been looking in all the same places,
And my hope is beginning to dither.

I didn't think it would be this hard,
I want to go back in time,
If I could be there when you died,
Then maybe there'd be less pain.

I so want you back,
But there's no way that'll happen,
You're not here any more,
You seem to be gone forever.

It's so unreal,
I never thought of this nightmare,
I never thought it would happen to me,
And this pain I cannot bare.

My happiness is gone,
My life is unjust,
I loved you so much,
Your life was a must.

My heart is now broken,
And I'm split in two,
My life is now ruined,
If only I knew.

I wanted to be there,
Now I suffer right here,
There's no way I'll forget you,
No way I'll repair.

I'll remember you forever,
You'll be right here in my heart,
You'll never be forgotten,
Even though we're apart.