I said I wasn't ready for this but you said we could be. I guess it didn't take long for me to see. To see that I really wanted you there.. But Ive been hurt so much in the past.. I acted like I didn't care. I pushed you away so I wouldn't fall for you. But thats just what you made me do. I started to open myself up.. I started to let you in. I was finally ready for our relationship to begin. Of course it was all to good to be true.. Because I f*k it up in the end.. its just something I tend to do. I always have something great staring me dead in the eye. But I always mess it up and can't help but cry. I always say guys hurt me in the end. But I f*k it up.. I'm the one who made us go back to being friends. I hate myself I can't do anything right. I get mad easily and start a stupid fight.. I'm always the one who cant hold it together. But you told me it would be always and forever.
