You think you understand all the stuff I go through everyday. But if you were me you'd see it in a totally different way. You would feel the pain and know how it feels. You don't understand because it doesn't seem real. But it is to me I am hurt everyday. I don't have anyone there to make sure I'm OK. I don't have someone who can hold me hand through it all. I'm the one who has to catch myself when I fall. I'm the one who has to try and do everything on my own. I don't have anyone to call on the phone. All those people who once were there. Just stopped but to care. They never really wanted to be there in the end. Ive never had a real friend. So as you laugh and put a smile on your face. Know that I'm being more and more erased.
