Longing For You

Reaching for your hand
Only to get dropped back to the dark cold ground
Falling and falling to the ground over and over
Trying to get someone to pull me up
And save me from my nightmares
of being alone and being left behind
Laying on the ground looking up to the dark star covered sky
Wishing someone would come and save me.
But so far its only my friends
Keeping me safe under their wings and watching eyes
Black roses cover the ground
The smell of dry blood all around me
Thorns cover my dying body to show blood flowing into the black roses that never end as far as the eye can see
The full moon shines bright above to show sayings in the flowers that reflect death deep inside my heart
I still love him
Someone that I'm not supposed to love
I held on while he let go
He let me fall and never caught me
He won't save me
He led me on and made me believe he cared until he found out my age
U can understand but he doesn't understand how far I fell for him and still am
He doesn't know how much I miss him and long for another hug that means so much
He's the one that can mend my heart and stop it from breaking and bleeding
I miss him
I love him
I long for him by my side
I long for his touch as he crosses my mind
I don't know what to do I'm confused.

(C)
Holly Hickman
06-24-06