Upside down life

I no longer have a soul
replacing my heart is a black hole

i gave up my feelings of happiness
don't know the meaning of forgiveness

i might've grown up in a huge house
but had to put up with my family cuss

never knowing what love is
even when i had my first kiss

I've been labeled as an emo
people say I'm a weirdo

sure i smile and laugh around people
but it's an act no one can see through

always having nightmares when i sleep
never had a dream so people call me a creep

my perspective of life is it's unfair
never been called beautiful and always in despair